I thought if I complied, if I was quiet, if I was good, then I'd be loved.
But I let it get this far.
And my parents were in the next room.
It’s my fault.
Today Jase and Zain officially joined our family. Eh, that’s not right.
I was so dang tired. Your brother still wasn’t sleeping. My body was still recovering from my csection, but we knew
Something was missing though. Answers to questions I didn’t know. Traits I could not claim. Family history unknown to me.
My ‘first born to me’ yet the fourth child I have been privileged to love as my own.
My Dad is amazing.
Simple as that.
I always wanted her to be my best friend, my confidant, my safe place...
I’ll never forget the feeling in my stomach when I was waiting to meet you. It didn’t go away for a few days. You were so tiny. Two months old but resembled a newborn.
I’m not sure what hurts more...