I thought if I complied, if I was quiet, if I was good, then I'd be loved.
But I let it get this far.
And my parents were in the next room.
It’s my fault.
Today Jase and Zain officially joined our family. Eh, that’s not right.
Something was missing though. Answers to questions I didn’t know. Traits I could not claim. Family history unknown to me.
My ‘first born to me’ yet the fourth child I have been privileged to love as my own.
My Dad is amazing.
Simple as that.
I always wanted her to be my best friend, my confidant, my safe place...
I’m not sure what hurts more...
Have you ever looked at a picture and been so overwhelmed with emotion that your heart literally ached?
I wanted a boy.
At the time, I already had one boy, so I knew what to expect.
But that was not really the reason.