I thought if I complied, if I was quiet, if I was good, then I'd be loved.
My Dad is amazing.
Simple as that.
I always wanted her to be my best friend, my confidant, my safe place...
I’m not sure what hurts more...
Have you ever looked at a picture and been so overwhelmed with emotion that your heart literally ached?
Driving away from your home.
The only home you have ever known.
I wanted a boy.
At the time, I already had one boy, so I knew what to expect.
But that was not really the reason.
I need to be all in.
Superficially, I am.
I preach about openness and having a heart for foster care.
Those 40 weeks crept by, especially in the moment.
I gained 41 lbs over those 40 weeks. (Wow, a pound a week! -- Yikes!)
One conversation that held so much weight.
So much hurt.
So much sadness.